Nineteen to the dozen

After numerous attempts to convince myself that you were truly busy, I finally broke down. For the last two weeks, I seem to wake up at around the same time each night, 2.20 am, and have a hard time going back to sleep because I'm thinking of you. I wonder what it is that I said or did that probably upset you so much. So many attempts to reach you, through Amma, messages left on WhatsApp that have been unanswered. I really find it hard to believe that you couldn't find the few seconds to type back saying "I miss you too, old man" or make a call and say "How are you, uncle?" Varun keeps asking me why I look so lost and sad. I don't know what I did. It troubles me each day when my daughter doesn't respond. Tears flow freely and I'm having a hard time watching the screen as I type. Did I do something wrong? I don't know what it is to be like, "not to care". While people go around their daily routine of making money, running behi...

My darling angel, The first time we had a long gap in seeing each other early this year, I mentioned that you can't do this to me. I have already missed so much of you that I miss you every moment I'm not with you. You said you would make it up to me by baking me something special every time we stayed away. I said you would have to give me time to compensate the days I miss you. For around a month or so, I took you to classes and brought you back home. We would spend an hour in all, driving to your class and back. So, we had agreed that for each day that you missed seeing me, you would give me an hour more of your time. It has been forty days now since we met last and I feel terrible without you. So, I decided to make note of the amount of time you need to give me now. Current period = 40 days Previous time = 30 days approximately Days in between = 15 days (Roughly the days you didn't have class) That makes it 85 days. In other words, you need to give me 85 hou...